Saturday, May 16, 2009

Standing on the edge of a cliff....


I am officially done with my first year of Grad school and almost a nurse....
It's crazy to think about the last year. This time last year I had just started Grad school, moved into an apartment by myself, and just started getting involved in Highlands. I was free, an open spirt, and visionary, and someone who had been broken and bandaged up, bandaids, stiches, and all... I had one desire, to seek God's face and fall madly in love with him...to let him romance me...

And slowly this world spins madly on....As the Lord healed my heart, he showed me grace and mercy, and taught me how to live fully dependent on him...something I still don't do very well....

And then my world turned upside down
I met Ron and everything changed.....

It didn't mean I was no longer a free spirit, a visionary, or that my whole being had to change....In fact, if anything, my dreams got bigger and my free spirit joined with his, and now life is different....But so much better...

As I stand on the edge of this gigantic mountain of change and what if's and what might be's...I realize, once again, I am in a place where everything is changing. In the next two months not only do I have to pass boards and become a nurse, but I am also planning a wedding, searching for a job, looking for a place to live, and trying to find the Lord in it all...

craziness is the only way to describe it

yet, in it all, things with the Lord remain the same....At the end of the day all he desires is for me to trust Him, rest in Him completely...He's gotten me this far, how could I even doubt His plans for me now...He still wants to romance me and find that secret place where my free spirit flies and I find myself wrapped in His arms.....

and it's beautiful and passionate and I get to share it all with the man God specifically created for me....The one I fall for again everyday.....